Hey.
I can only imagine that a fair number of you have seen my Tweets lately and have come to the conclusion that I’m having a slightly tough time with life as of late. I do believe this is the unfortunate part of trying to get better, you tend to have to get worse first. I really don’t like it, but it is what it is and there’s little I can do to change that fact.
One of the larger things looming is an appointment that I have with a neurologist tomorrow. The appointment will pretty much confirm what myself, my wife, and most of you all who’ve met me have suspected/known all along, namely that I have Tourette’s (Wikipedia link, in case you aren’t aware that it’s not just people screaming curse words). While this condition is treatable, I’m still filled with a certain feeling of dread, namely that I may lose some aspects of me since the treatment is usually a mild sedative. Yes, despite tons (and gigs) of research to the contrary, I’m assuming that I’m about to become a medicated zombie. This is especially harsh in light of the fact that I am also probably going to start a mood-stabilizer soon enough to help treat a condition I have known as Cyclothymia (another Wikipedia link, but it’s basically diet Bipolar Disorder). And then combined with my other meds (metformin, lycinopril, and tricor), I just think my entire life will be an endless series of pills and, basically, I’ll spend my days either zoned-out, or in the bathroom (I’ll let you all make that appropo joke there, I am still generous after all).
So I’ve decided I need to revisit an old project idea of mine, Senbazuru (yup, another Wikipedia link). Senbazuru is the act of folding 1,000 origami cranes. The legend is, basically, that anyone who folds 1,000 cranes is granted a single wish by a crane, which just so happens to be a symbol of health and luck over in Japan. Yes, I am weeaboo, please get over it. My current plan is to try and do at least one a day, take a picture, and post it here on my blog. At first the overall flow will be plain. Solid colors and such. Eventually, I’ll be doing what I usually do with my cranes and creating customized colors and designs for them. It’s an art project, basically.
On one hand I’m really excited about this project. On the other, I wonder if I’ll stick with it. Part of my goal here is to ensure that I don’t just fall completely into myself once I start getting on all of these meds. I’ll be using the Senbazuru tag on all of these, of course, so you’ll have quick access to the gallery. Eventually I will also probably create a Flickr gallery for them.
That’s about it for now. Stay tuned as I’m reasonably sure I’ll post again tomorrow about what I find out at the neurologist consult.
Wheeeeee.
